| misery/work/money. you must have them all. its a triangle of DEATH! |
[23 Jul 2006|11:59pm] |
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so i worked 15 long hours today.
no breaks.
i worked all 4 shows.
i wasnt sheduled too but one of the girls was not feeling well and i said i would work for her tonight if she worked my tuesday night. she agreed.
so i worked from 8:30am to 11:30pm. ouch.
my feet feel like they are going to melt.
PLUS, it was crazy busy today and understaffed which made everyone elses job that much harder.
i felt like crying.
chris wanted me and brooke to hang out tonight, but i wasnt in the mood after i had to stay for that last show. i am just to tired to go out drinking.
id fall asleep.
the good news is i made $250 today, so i will have over $600 in my bank account once i deposit it.
hopefuly, i will get a chance to go and see brian for a few days.
i dont have to work until thrusday.
it would be nice if i could go and see him.
love love.
ciao.
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[21 Jul 2006|03:17am] |
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drunk.
the update is drunk.
goodnight.
ciao.
♥
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| going back to cali...cali. |
[19 Jul 2006|06:43pm] |
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so brooke and i spent most of the day cleaning our room because it looked like a bomb filled with womans clothing, and accessories exploded in our room.
that was fun.
i ofcourse finished my stuff,
and brooke ofcourse, left when she was almost done.
and when she gets home tonight, all of the things that are on her bed now, will be on the floor..and there they will stay and i will loose my mind.
i am not angry.
i have enjoyed my 4 days off, tomorrow i have to work at 5. which is a good way to get back into the swing of things.
$400 in the bank account.
i am doing swell.
ciao.
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[18 Jul 2006|05:02pm] |
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hot!! |
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mmm.
triffle.
mmm.
just got home from brians.
it is so much cooler in scarborough than it is here.
i wish i still lived there.
nothing much new.
ciao.
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| so hot.. |
[14 Jul 2006|08:36pm] |
its so hot..
so dead at work today.
so hot i have no patience.
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[11 Jul 2006|07:54pm] |
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tired.
tired.
tired.
ugh..work sucks. i smell like gross beer and wine. uck.
so i started a bank account yesterday and there is $200 in it. yeah.
$300 away from my dad loaning $500 to look for a new car.
heck yes.
hm, nothing new really.
my mom made this yummy mexican type dish.
ciao.
p.s.
i am sick of artsy, faggot, 16yr old emo kids.
oh how i wish they would grow up.
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[07 Jul 2006|08:08pm] |
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my sister playing FFX. |
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people in this world can be so...
[?]
ugh.
i hung out with brooke elhers and the two bigelow boys at their new homestead last night.
brooke and i drank a bottle of el toro, and got el tore up.
haha.
i had to write that.
just taking it easy today. work tomorrow.
my lovely sister is home and i am happy.
i am tired.
ive been sleeping most of the day, which would explain my tiredness.
mmm, chlupas.
ciao.
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| long summer days.. |
[05 Jul 2006|05:57pm] |
2 hot, long, sweaty days of helping the bigelow boys and james move out of their house. :[
sad.
i am finally done.
ugh.
tomrrow i have to work 10am-3am. its going to suck.
balls.
i would only have to work until like 11ish, but we are now going to have a late night showing of Dead Mans Chest, so now i will be there until the end of time. only to make things worse, i have to work friday morning at 9:45.
i feel like crying.
even more so tomorrow.
then another double on saturday, 10-10.
and sunday i get some relief. only 8:30am-6ish.
so i am going to be a busy girl the next few days.
i am taking it easy tonight. watch a few movies and then sleep.
i am tired already.
p.s.
the newest addition to my face. for those who have not seen it.
p.s. its my nose stud. dont worry, my mum didnt notice ethier.
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| heartburn. |
[02 Jul 2006|11:42pm] |
ugh.
work work work. thats all i seem to do.
nothing much has changed since the last update.
my sister is in New York until the sixth or so.
i miss her bunches.
peace.
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| my sweet revenge... |
[13 Jun 2006|05:29pm] |
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so no canada.
boohoo.
instead we are going to go camping which rocks just as much.
i really wanted to go to canada.
but, oh well, some other time.
brian and i are done for good.
i hope so atleast, i am sad about it, but i am sick of this constant on again off again bullshit relationship.
its very bittersweet.
i had hoped that we would remain friends, but since he has a problem with everyone i hang out with, (i.e they are all guys) because he thinks i am fucking everyone, it is never going to work out. for the last month i have been putting up with him calling me a drunk slut, and a ho, and then listening to him apologize to me and think that he actually means it. then he turns around he does the same thing.
i am fucking sick of it nigga!
ive been doing okay.
i cry every once and a while, but for the most part i am alright. i thought i would be doing alot worse, but i am so drained of emotions that i dont know how to feel anymore.
i am content with who i am.
i am content with where i am.
i am content with my life.
i am a robot.
enough about that.
work is insanity. still pulling 12-15 hour days on the weekends. i just payed off my fines. $305.00. ouch. they were do today or else there was going to be a benchwarrent for my arrest. so i am glad i got that take care of. now..tattoo saving time.
peace nigs.
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| all work and no play. |
[06 Jun 2006|02:50pm] |
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work work work.
12-15 hour shifts on the weekends.
insanity.
finally have enough di nero to pay off my fines.
holla.
plus i am going to canada july 4th.
holla.
that be all for now.
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| el-update-o |
[04 May 2006|04:33pm] |
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mike just called me.
i think i have a crush on him.
he is super sweet and i hope we are going to hang out tonight.
♥
this makes me feel really bad because of brian, but he broke up with me, so yeah.
in your face nigga!
anywho, i just got home from a fun filled few days at brians home.
and by fun i mean, i runined my diet because there is nothing to do there but eat food and watch tv.
but it was still nice to see him.
he showed up at chris and coreys on monday night, and i was glad that i hadnt left to go over mikes house. that would have been akward.
i dont know how to break it to brian that i am interested in someone else...
i want to..
i love brian..
but he broke up with me..
i dont want him to be upset..
i like mike, but nothing may even happen, he might want to be just friends..
ugh.
confusion.
so i have had this whole week off and it sucks. i was suppose to work breakfast shift on sunday-8:00, but i noticed that when i got home work called on tuesday so i called back and terri said i wouldnt have to work until 10. soooo less tips.
i made 80 last saturday.
which is really good. i made like 25 first show, and the remainder second show.
first show is always really slow.
anywho, video game time.
ciao.
♥
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[28 Apr 2006|10:37pm] |
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ugh.
work.
finally something somewhat worth while to complain about. heh.
tuesday was okay, they had me running trays so i could remember table numbers.
had today off.
went to get my eyebrows waxed.
went shopping at kohls with me mum.
and soon, i will be going to bed because i have to get up at 8:30 tomorrow for work.
i dont have to be there til 10..but shower/shaving legs is a must.
last night..woohoo.
i was so drunk last night.
wow. it was bad.
i got sick.
like 4 times.
i only had 2 natty ice 40s, and half a bottle of wine. its not much, but i think the wine did me in.
wine is bad.
but this wine tasted like koolaid so i was sucking it down like koolaid.
i think it was wild irish rose.
ive been sick the last couple of days. since tuesday..and wednesday was bad. i only had a cold, but i had a terrible cough that made my brain hurt and kept me awake all night. im better now, just a little congested. a bunch of people are getting like a flu thingy. chris got it, and he was pooping water and puking alot. im glad i only had a cold.
enough rambling.
night night
ciao.
p.s. i went to see silent hill on saturday and it rocked my socks off. well i wasnt wearing socks but the movie rocked. it was everything i had hoped it would be and more. they really stayed true to the game. they used only songs from the game for the music in the movie. ohhh it made me so happy..
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| sick sick sick. |
[26 Apr 2006|03:28pm] |
my computer has once again "shit the bed," so to speak. updates are going to be very limited and such. i told my mom to get a new computer, but who listens to me?
im fucking sick.
super sick.
but the good news is...I GOT A JOB!!
woohoo.
i am back a chunkys....er smittys cinema in sanford and i could not be happier. i start tomorrow at 2.
i hope i will be feeling better because they put me on waitstaff, so i dont want to feel like shit.
i guess thats all for now.
ciao.
love ya.
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| so heres the deal.... |
[15 Apr 2006|01:40pm] |
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update.
had fun the past few days.
havent spent a night home all week.
i probably should.
i would like to go and see brian tonight. i need to call him, but i think that my parents may want me home tomorrow because they are cooking a semi-large dinner. nothing fancy, but i know my presence will be appreciated.
so next month i go for my GED. may 1st and 3rd. i am kind of nervous because i have been out of school for a while so i am afraid i have forgotten everything. i really hope not. i just want to get some kind of proof for having an education. i am sick of feeling like a loser.
dropping out of high school was the biggest mistake of my life... so far.
so this means alot to me.
i guess i am just worried.
x ♥ o
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| time flies. |
[11 Apr 2006|08:47pm] |
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so the last few days have been quite fun.
saturday.
went out to eat with the lovely ladies and the fine gentlemen. (sarah, nikki, jimmy, and graham-o) we went to magaritas. it was okay, a bit pricey though. then we went back to sarah and jims house and just chilled. had a few drinks, got a nice buzz going. i left earlier than i thought i would have, but brian got out early and he had to get back to his dads house to do something. i felt kind of akward after brian showed up. i wish he would have sat around the group so he could have socialzed, but whatever. i kind of understood because he doesnt really know anyone, and he didnt know what to say. he shy.
sunday.
didnt do much really. lounged around at brians house.
monday.
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tuesday. (today)
left brians house and went to the bank so he could set up a bank account. then we stopped at everyone and their mothers house so brian could get a joint but no one was home at all. so he drove me home and we decided to go out to eat at Sullies. i knew it wasnt going to be that great but i wanted to spend more time with him, so we went. plus-chris and coery work there. after we spent $14.88 on 2 burgers we went over to beanos and hung out for an hour. brian lost his cigarettes somewhere between sullies and beanos, and blamed it on me. ugh. so now i am home, and chris and corey are picking me up pretty soon..probably in a half hour or so. i am going over there for the night.
i had a fun. i hope to see sarah and nikki some more. :]
ciao
♥
my stump, my stump, my stump, my lovely lady stump....check it out.
p.s. sean connery should only say the word "lobstah" for the remander of his life.
lobstah
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[08 Apr 2006|03:55pm] |
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ugh.
i feel like poop.
ugh.
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| big big plans. |
[06 Apr 2006|06:34pm] |
today is a turning point.
i need to do something with my life.
so i went to the american cruise lines website to check out the criteria for becoming an employee. you need your HS diploma. i emailed them and asked them if i could have my GED instead. chris knows people who worked on the boat and has their GED instead. unfortunately, i dont not have my GED, but my second plan is to go get it. so tomorrow i will be calling to set up an appointment to get it. i would really like to join ACL, because you go from maine to florida, and you make lots of money money money...wooo. so i will be able to save up, and maybe go to a college after a while.
maybe.
i am excited
and it is time i do something because i am tired of feeling like a loser.
i hope everything goes how i would like it too. that would be so awesome.
love love love
♥
ciao.
p.s. i went and did my taxes..$305. pfft.
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| soooooooo tired. |
[06 Apr 2006|03:36pm] |
ugh.
i am exhausted. i went out to chris and coreys last night. i tried to get drunk, but sometimes it just doesnt work out. i went to bed around 4, slept til 12:30 and i am still dead tired. i have to go and do my taxes at 4:30. i have an appointment with some guy at the lyman library. i am so fucking tired.
plus, i think i am going to poo myself.
ill write more later.
ciao.
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